Table For NINE

 I will never forget the day I first came to my adoptive family. (I will post full story soon) My mother told us she was taking us to a fancy restaurant for a family night. I remember walking into this nice restaurant and hearing my mother say,"A TABLE FOR NINE" please. I was a bit confused because I counted and there was only seven kids plus one single momma. I had heard my new mom was a bit crazy so I just thought this was one of her crazy moments. Shouldn't we of gotten a table for eight? I recounted all of us and was just confused. As we all sat down, my mom saved a place for someone right next to her. I began looking around wondering who in the world was meeting us for dinner. Who was joining us for "Our Family Night?" At the time I was too scared to even talk, so I just sat there curiously wondering and expecting someone to join us for dinner. My mother began to order and smile and she began to seriously get on my nerves, and then I couldn't take it anymore. I had to find out who she was saving the seat for. I will never forget the words that came out of her mouth. "Kids I want to introduce you to your father." "I have invited him to dinner with us tonight, and would like to tell you all about him." I sat there stunned, as my mother began to talk about a man who would never leave us or forsake us. She talked about His heart and who His character was. She began to describe how he saved her life and began to tell us all about him. She said she would like to introduce Him to us. I will never forget that moment. The tears just fell from my eyes. I had become so numb and this was the first time I could even feel again. As she began to describe who He was, I felt as if I had already met him. It was a familiar feeling. I cant describe it but there were many and I mean many nights where I lay bleeding and in pain where I felt his presence. I so wanted to just die so the pain would stop. When I say pain I mean severe pain. My body was used as basically a chopping block or a cutting board. I not only felt physical pain as my parents would do horrors to me but I felt such deep heart pain. There were many nights I felt as if someone was carrying me, keeping me warm, and whispering into my ear words of hope. I then realized as my mother began to describe this person who she saved a seat for, it was the same person who held me, wiped my tears, and mended my open wounds. That night in a restaurant in Tulsa, Oklahoma I met a man that has forever changed my life. He has truly healed me. He is my father and my Doctor. With tears I accepted Jesus into my heart that night. I will never forget the evening when God came to dinner with us and I officially met him. I will never forget the prayer and tears streaming down my mom's face as she introduced us to the man that had once healed her as well. I will never forget the embrace I got, I never wanted my mom to let go. I didn't just feel her arms around me but God's arms. When she prayed over me and cried over me I promise you this I saw my father God in her eyes. Someone told me the other day that she disagrees with my mom for adopting me and so many kids. They said my mom had no business adopting children without a father. If they only knew what goes on behind the doors of my home, they wouldn't dare say that. It breaks my heart to see the pain, the fight, and the major persecution my mom has endured. What people don't realize we the kids are the ones that suffer. Everyone thinks I am not listening, but I am almost 15 years old and hear it all and understand it too. So mom this one is for you. Forget what people say. I couldn't even read or write when you got me. I never spoke and people told you I was beyond help. And look at me now. So glad you fought for me and still fight for me. You once told me that you would hold me until my pain has left and you kept the promise. My pain has left and you still hold me. I will hold you until your pain leaves and wish I could fight for you the same way you fight for me. So happy you chose to adopt an older child. So happy that you always to this day save a seat for my daddy God.